Waiting in Vain

Waiting in Vain, originally uploaded by andebos.

This movie was on TV today as I was flipping through finishing an imovie I'm making for my devotional in another week or so... I went as saw this movie my junior year with the girls at the love house. It wasn't the biggest hit with them but I remember really enjoying it. Shortly thereafter I purchased the soundtrack which is much better than the movie. This song always takes me back to Christmas time in Kansas City and winters in Kirksville. Mostly, it reminds me of a nostalgic winter time of life walking through snow falls and chilled winds with an old friend. Whenever I hear it there is a bizzare smile that appears on my face as I remember back, it's a song that makes me feel hope for the future and the brilliance of the past...it brings out all the glimmer of years long gone.

Waiting In Vain
From the very first time I rest my eyes on you, boy
My heart said follow through but I know now
That I'm way down on your line
But the waiting feeling's fine

So don't treat me like a puppet on a string
Because I know how to do my thing
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb
I wanna know when you're gotta come,you see

I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
'cause summer is here
And I'm still waiting there
Winter is here
I'm still waiting there

Like I said
It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy, ooh boy, is it crazy look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more, you see

In life I know
That there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief
Tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waitin'
While I'm waitin' for my turn, you see


Like I said-
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain

It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy, ooh boy, is it crazy look, I wanna know now
Like I said, the tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waiting
While I'm waiting for my turn, you see
Ooh boy,ooh boy,is it crazy look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more
In life I know there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief

Johnathan Trager's Obituary
Jonathan Trager, prominent television producer for ESPN, died last night from complications of losing his soul mate and fiancee. He was 35 years old.
Soft-spoken and obsessive, Trager never looked the part a hopeless romantic.
But in the final days of his life, he revealed an unknown side of his psyche. This hidden quasi-jungian persona serves during the Agatha Christie-like pursuit for his long-reputed soul mate: A woman whom he only spent a few precious hours with.
Sadly, the protracted search ended late Saturday night in complete and utter failure.
Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Trager clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. But rather it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan.
Asked about the loss of his dear friend Dean Kansky, Pulitzer prize winner and New York Times Executive Editor, described Jonathan as a changed man in the last days of his life. Things were clearer for him, Kansky noted.
Ultimatedly, Jonathan concluded for us to be in harmony with the universe we must possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to called fatum. What we currently refer to as destiny.